How can you say you would only take a born muslim as a wife
How can you say you would only take a convert
Or a white Muslim
Or an Arab woman
or a desi woman
How can you start making these decisions when you are not the one who dictates qadr?
Allah has someone for you, but I don’t think He is going to run through your personal checklist first
THANK YOU
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seriously? You want to bring religion up again? Saying how we don’t pray, it makes you sad because no one will pray for you when in the afterlife? Saying how we need to pray so that we don’t get classified with the Christians and non-believers when we die? Okay, this pissed me off ALOT, because I don’t believe in this aspect of Islam. I don’t believe that God is that cruel. But I didn’t say anything, I didn’t want the drama. Honestly, I am dead tired everyday, I reach home late. No time for even meals sometimes. What about mornings? I get about 5 hours of sleep. Still can ask me why I’m tired, saying I should concentrate on rest and work and not go out. Please lah. I’m going fucking crazy, can you realize that by now?!? It’s been years since I’ve actually chosen to talk. Keep shooting till sister breaks down (why, not Muslim anymore is it?)!, then suddenly everything is okay when dad gets home.
I’m already struggling as fuck with concept of religion itself right now, with everything going on around me. I am so incredibly confused. I finally understand why my sisters turned all not religious in their jc years. Pressure is insane.
Religion is not supposed to do this. It is not supposed to drive you fucking insane. It is supposed to be simple. But all these enforcements and expectations ruin it.
Still don’t know why Muslim youths turn out horrid? It’s because it is so. Bloody. Difficult.
People think I’m really religious but I’m not. I just believe in the morals and lessons taught. Sadly I do not believe in the concept of religion that is being pushed upon us. I believe in religion but I do not believe in the way it is enforced. Talk about it like its all been defined and set in stone, like you know it all. Did God come to you and whispered epiphanies in your sleep? …..Thought so.
Can’t take it, really. So bloody ridiculous.
My friend Amanda says she’s jealous of people who get to see their boyfriend everyday, because her boyfriend Felix is over in the UK and he’s only coming back in August. I can only begin to understand how painful and trialling long distance relationships can be. Put it plainly, it really sucks.
She says I’m lucky he’s in the same school and we get to see each other a lot. In actual fact, I don’t quite think it’s that much better. I barely see him at all. We glimpse each other sometimes, but the only real time we have is when we wait or each other after school. Even then it is really short and we can’t do much. Plus we live at opposite ends of Singapore so we can’t go home together.
Being so close yet so far hurts. And it’s sad. It’s like putting a delicious cake in front of you but you’re only allowed the icing. I just want to grab him and kiss him and be happy but I can’t. And I have to be wary of my behavior because of council. Plainly put being deprived of your very own boyfriend SUCKS BALLS.
Every Sherlockian in tumblr should reblog this
And all that remains must be the truth.
Lol cutie Jiyoon.
i have a massive urge to drop out of school, delete my facebook and twitter, throw my phone out the window and get on a train to somewhere random and just go on a massive adventure
— Finnick Odair (via heartachelixir)
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— I Wrote This For You, The Remaining Mirrors (via anditslove)
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There were a lot of points raised up in today’s Sex Ed. Okay maybe it was just a boring session for others, but I make it a point to listen as to what other’s views are. I thought some interesting parts were the responses of the teachers. A few memorable quotes?
Like, how do you know if he’s “the one”? One view was that there is never truly THE ONE, but rather it takes a lot of hardwork to make the person THE ONE. One said that the feeling is different, the person will make your heart race like no other. Another said that she made it a point to tell the guy from the start she’s not looking for a fling, but for a husband. Mind you, these are remarks from real women. The general consensus from students is that you should be able to talk openly and be comfortable with each other and be understanding and accommodating.
But I think one teacher’s remark striked me the most. She said that a guy should make you a better person, then he’s the one for you. Regardless of whatever flaws he has, as long as he does this, as long as he believes you’re the most beautiful thing on this freaking planet, as long as he treasures you, or as Juno would put it, he believes “the Sun shines out of your ass”. I think I agree with this. Mostly because that’s what my mum says too. She always said that, if you’re with someone, and your luck changes for the better, he’s probably what’s best for you.
Okay, while everyone is all like .___. I’m listening intently. Maybe because I know one day I might think back and realize I should have listened? Anyway I felt since everything was so serious, might as well ask a question, right?
So I asked one that was ridiculously close to me. I asked, what do you think of interracial relationships? The answer was what I expected, it was what I’d though about anyway.
The answer was this : Interracial relationships in Singapore are inevitable, but they require double the hard work because of the different cultures and barriers, they require lots of understanding and compromise and sacrifice, especially in marriage. (oh my, that’s a whole other issue, contrasting families, deciding on one religion… etc)
Surprised? No, not really. Important? I guess. It does crop up quite often. Yeah it’s difficult, it’s reaaaaalyyyyyy difficult. Nobody said it was going to be easy. I didn’t expect this to get this serious, actually. That coupled with the fact that I have issues with my religion now.
Don’t get me wrong, I do love my religion and what it stands for. Islam, direct translation, Peace. But as it is, I have a very different view on religion. I am more spiritual than I am religious. I believe that every religion is the same in its purpose, every religion and belief stems from love, peace, and humanity, but mostly hope. We are all the same in that sense. We all believe in the same thing. In a better day.
I guess in that sense, I’m not very religious. I know it’s against my religion to believe in other religions, but I really believe that God will accept those kind at heart, not just Muslims. As shrewd as it sounds, why would God be that judgemental? Also, the strict rules is a bit of a problem now, although there are rationals behind them. It’s incredibly difficult to be a Muslim in this present day society. But at the same time the portrayal of Muslims frustrates me. I want to change it, I want to change it all, this isn’t how my religion is supposed to be, it is supposed to be one of peace and love, this is the reason why Islam has the highest number of converts in the world, people CHOOSE this religion for a reason, I see the reason, I do, but oh god, is it difficult, I swear.
Well anyway, in a sense I am a floater, I am a philosopher, I like to take moral lessons from all walks of religion, it makes me laugh when I reblog Christian stuff and people ask me about it. Do I really have to be Christian to understand its lessons and to respect it? No. I suppose I’m really open minded? Why confine your thoughts, your lessons to yourself? Share. In light of all these, people segregate each other and forget we’re all human. We’re all the same.
This is why people look at me and say I’m in my own world. Because I am. I am a free soul. I believe in so much more than the average mind. My dreams scare me, everything scares me but I will push for it.
No one will understand my world, but I am fine with it.
